It is the biggest nightmare of every new mom and mom-to-be and anyone-thinking-about-being-a-mom-someday. Or at least it is high up there on the "I sure hope that never happens to me" list. Or on the "oh shit, please never let these things happen on my watch" list.
Critter and I fell yesterday. Down some stairs. I was holding her and I slipped and we fell.
Worst. Moment. Ever.
Ever.
Long story short, we are both ok. I held on to her until I hit ass to stair, and by that point we were at the bottom of the stairs, so when she fell out of my arms (OMG!) she only tumbled like a foot and a half into the wall. She hit the moulding (baseboard?) with the back of her head. Ouch.
She began crying, howling, louder than I've ever heard. I tried to remain calm, so as not to freak the Critter out more, and I called Mr. P. Interrupted a conference call he was on, and scared the living daylights out of him and his coworker, hearing the Critter screaming on the other end. He came right home. Thank God he works 10 minutes away. By the time he got home, the Critter had calmed down and she was having her bottle, what we were coming downstairs to have in the first place. She seemed mostly ok, maybe a little sleepy, and had a lump on the back of her head.
We went to the ER, and she was seen pretty fast - it wasn't that busy. By that point she was acting pretty normal, smiling and playing. I, on the other hand, could not stop crying. I would be ok for a bit, then someone would ask a question about what happened, or about the Critter in general, and I'd choke up. I was a mess.
Critter checked out alright with the doc, and they felt they didn't even need to keep her for observation. They told us what to watch for over the next 24 hours, and sent us on our way. Got home, fed that hungry girl and put her to bed. And you better bet your ass I watched her all night long. We have a camera in her room, so I can watch her on my computer. I slept (sorta) with the computer on next to my bed, and checked to make sure she was breathing all night long.
And she was fine. She is a bit cranky today, and I gave her some Ty.len.ol which sort of helped. Her head looks great given what happened, hardly a bruise or mark, just a little one in under her hair.
Me? My ass hurts like nobody's business. I'm feeling very shaken, like I didn't do enough for my girl. I know that's silly, it was an accident, I slipped, it happens. And I protected the Critter best I could. But in my heart, I ache. My poor baby. And it was on my watch.
She was with me and she got hurt. Ugh, it feels awful.
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1 day ago
So scary, and so glad everyone's ok!
ReplyDeleteYou poor thing. I can imagine how scary it was. Glad you are both ok.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, that is so scary. But I'm relieved to know that both of you are ok. When Emma was about 3 days old, I was holding her on the couch and went to stand up. She totally fell out of my arms and I caught her about 2 inches above the coffee table like a football. She hardly reacted but I was a mess. Couldn't stop shaking and crying, thinking "what if." So I totally know how you feel!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, that is totally my fear every time I go down the stairs. I am so glad that you are both ok. And please don't blame yourself - you did great to hold onto her for that long. It sounds like she is bouncing back just fine.
ReplyDeleteSo glad you are both ok! Tyler fell off our tall bed when he was younger, once on Kerry's watch and once on mine. Hearing the thud followed by screaming creates a panic like no other in a parent! He was totally fine both times, but I know the feeling of reliving it over and over in your mind and then watching them like a hawk.
ReplyDeleteOh my! I am SO sorry! I have this exact fear every time I carry Mads down the stairs. I am so impressed that you held onto her until you got to the bottom. It says a lot that your instinct wasn't to protect yourself. I can only hope I would do the same. You are an awesome mama. My heart totally goes out to you. Hope you can sleep tonight.
ReplyDeleteaw, i'm glad you're both ok, i bet it scared you more than it hurt her :)
ReplyDeleteOMG! How scary! Poor Critter - and poor Pie! I'm so glad you're both ok, physically, anyways.
ReplyDeleteI saw Davie pulling up on the coffee table the other day. I went to catch her but I was soooo slow and she slipped and hit her eye! Now she has a red bump under her eye. :( I win the worst mommy ever award.
Omg I'm so glad that everything is ok. I dropped b once in the early days and still freak out about it. I'm impressed that you held on to her so tightly, you did a great job -- seriously.
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