I'm a terrible blogger. And I state the obvious way too much.
Moving on.
A new year. I'm very curious to see where this year will take us, our little family. The years of IF torture, well, they were stagnant years. Wanting to move forward with our lives, but couldn't.
Then the Critter, my sweet, wonderful girl came into our lives - 2 years ago next week. And we have been getting used to the new normal, the new lives we inhabit now as a family of three (really four, including Umps the cat). It has been great. Simple as that.
But this year, 2013, it may hold the biggest changes we've been through yet. Mr. P is getting his career in order, and will have much more flexibility in his current job, while also pursuing a start-up thing on the side. I'm proud of him, he is taking some risks, and so far things seem to be paying off. He will be around more, more involved in our daily lives, which is always a good thing.
We are also moving to the 'burbs. In like 3 weeks. On my birthday. OMG, we are going to be suburbanites. My dear Mr. P has never lived outside the city limits before. Seriously, he has lived in a very urban environment his entire life. I think he is more excited than anyone. I'm looking forward to more space. I will actually have a pantry - I cannot even begin to describe my excitement over having a real honest-to-goodness pantry. My heart flutters just writing that. So yeah, major life change happening there, in just a few weeks.
And then there is the whole baby-making thing. I am thinking I am ready to try IVF, the one more time. I know I keep waffling around about this. But I guess right now, in this moment at least, it just feels like things are lining up that we could really give it a try. The Critter would just be such a good big sister, I feel like for her at the least, we need to try.
So yeah, this could be a big year for us. Exciting times.
Repeat: Cold Peace
1 day ago
We are so in the same boat, once again! We are trying to make that painstaking decision of whether to do IVF again or not. It's such a hard decision, you know, $30k for a CHANCE. Will we stop there? Will we be satisfied if it doesn't work? Will we regret it more if we spend all that money and it doesn't work, or keep the money and never try? IF sure does suck! I turn 40 in a couple of weeks and that is torture because I feel like I need to either go for it or just move on. I don't want to get a couple of years down the road and then kick myself and say, why didn't I do something when I could? I can't seem to make up my mind for nothing! Did I say IF sucks?
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are in such a hard place with decision making. I know I would never want to have to make that decision again either. Maybe this will help: when I knew I was done, I was done. I knew it down deep. If you're not there yet, then maybe you're not done?
ReplyDeleteOf course, if you're sure you want another child but not sure you want the IVF/non-guarantee, would you guys ever consider adoption? I can attest that it's one of the greatest ways to build a family :)
Welcome to the suburbs! My good friend moved to the suburbs for the first time a few years ago, and she's still adjusting. :) How is it possible that your little miracle will already be two years old? It seems like only yesterday that we met on the IVFC boards!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and the big changes in the air for you!