PUPO!

Hooray! I am officially PUPO!

I am typing this from my comfy bed at the hotel, computer next to me while i lay totally horizontal, flat on my back. its not easy to type like this, let me tell you. But I gotta do what is best for my blast on board, capitalization be damned!

everything went very well today. My sweet frozen blast baby thawed perfectly, and was at 100% and reexpanding. I didn't get a picture because my mom is technologically challenged and couldn't work my iphone. so i didn't get a great view of the blast, so i have to take the embryologist's word on it.

so now i bedrest. nestle in, little one. let's hang out for the next 38-ish weeks, ok?

I've got a time!

We are as official as offical gets, peoples!!

On Thursday June 28 (yes, in like 40-odd hours) I will be PUPO! Can you believe it? I'm scared, excited, nervous, eager - all rolled into one tired lady who hasn't packed yet. Yikes.

Last time I did this, I asked all of you interweb friends, dear interwebbie friends, to think of me right at the exact time of transfer. And I swear I felt it then. Seriously, the day went so well, I was in such a good mental space, I just felt the love. So I need to ask you again. I'm cutting-n-pasting this from that fateful post, way back in April 2010. It worked so well last time, why mess with a good thing?



Ok, all you out there in the world, I need your help.

And this includes you too, lurkers. Yes, you. Yeah, you, sitting at your desk, goofing off at work, reading blogs. And you too, on your couch with the laptop. All of you.

Thursday at 11:30am Mountain time (which is 1:30pm for you East Coasters and 10:30am for you Pacific chicks. International people, whenever you can - it'll take awhile for everything to travel anyway) I need you to do me a favor. An important one.

Stop what you're doing at that time, or at least stop what you are thinking about while doing something else, and send me any or all of the following:

~ prayers
~ best wishes
~ happy thoughts
~ sticky vibes
~ good karma
~ zen and peace
~ good luck

Or any other positive vibes. These will all be beamed to me at the far-away clinic while one of my frozen children is transferred to my painstakingly prepared uterus. I figure with all my regular interweb friends, added to all you lurkers (and I know you're out there, Google Analytics tells me so), will cause a positive cosmic shift (or something like that, I'm fuzzy on the mechanism of all this) and then I'll reap all that goodness.

Thank you!! And wish us luck :)

p4 update

Just a quick update - I went in for my p4 (progesterone) check this morning, and that looks good. After 2 ass shots, and one icky-beyond-ick prometrium suppository, I'm at 20.9, and they want above 20. So squeaking by, but still acceptable. Fine by me.

And flights and hotel are all booked too. We will have to switch hotels on Thursday before the transfer because all the good hotels were booked for Wednesday (and I do mean every hotel in the whole metro area was just about booked, never seen anything like it). We threw around some points and status to get that Wednesday room at a hotel I don't even want to stay in. But whatever, its a place to stay, and for the bedrest part of things, I'll be in the hotel I like.

So things are a go! I'm getting excited!

lining check, part deux

I went in this morning for my second lining check, and I'm happy to report things look good. Whew.

I was so glad to have a chatty, very nice u/s tech (is a crap shoot at this local clinic, some are so nice, others, like a stone wall). Anyway, she was very forthcoming and showed me everything as she measured it. She instantly saw I had a c-section, which made me think she knew what she was looking at. She again had to do both the dildo cam and the tummy scan on me, because as she explained it, after c-sections, your ute just sort of falls backwards. I've always had a retroverted ute, but she said this is different - specifically from the c-section. Huh, did not know that.

So the details - my lining is about 9 (she took two measurements, one with dildo (8.8) and one with tummy scan 9.1) and it still has a lovely stripe pattern which she showed me very clearly. Hey, I figure if I saw it clearly, it certainly is there.

So, whew. I have to wait til this afternoon to get the official ok from far away clinic, but I think we are a go! Mad scramble for airline tickets tonight!

I'll update after I hear from my nurse.

EDITED TO ADD: Hooray! All is on for transfer next Thursday 6/28. My lining was officially 9.1 and pretty striped and my e2 was sky-high at 1100-something. PIO starts tomorrow! Ass, get ready!

Waiting

So I'm still here...waiting til Friday for my lining check. I have been going back and forth between being ok, being positive (hey, the lining's had to grow .5 in a week, right? it will stay beautifully striped and be thick, no biggie) to the exact opposite of that.

In my darker moments, I'm fearing a lining that is too thick (they let me go too long!!) or a lining that is already compacting and lost its pretty stripe (too long again!!). I don't think it hasn't increased at all, but now that I write that out, I will add it to my list of worries. I won't let myself even think the c-word (ack! not cancelled!) at this point.

We ended up cancelling our plane tickets outright, and just waiting til Friday before we rebook. Which, if we get to rebook (please please let it happen), will cost an arm and a leg, but so be it. Hell, what's a ton more money at this point, right? And of course the hotels seem all booked, or close to it for that week - is something going on in the city of the far away clinic that week? Some big conference or something? Who knows, but it will be more expensive and we might not get to stay where I want to. Sigh, just another annoyance from this delay.

For all you far away clinic gals out there - where did you stay? I'm looking into other hotels, preferably with some sort of kitchen, ideally a 2 bed suite. Let me know where you stayed, and if it had any of that.

Otherwise, just waiting. Trying not to freak out...and waiting some more.

6 days - with a bad update

I meant to get this post written yesterday, where it could have been entitled "One Week" but time was not on my side yesterday, and here I am, a day late. Alas.

So, 6 days until transfer....I hope, that is. I went for my u/s check and e2 bloodwork this morning. Bright and early too - 7am. Yawn. It's one thing to be up with the Critter that early, but another entirely to have to drive and talk to people and such.

Anyway, they were quick and saw me right away. My ute is still retroverted, so she actually used a belly scan on me, pushing down super hard, to get the view she wanted. Although the tech said she was not supposed to tell me about it, she said she saw "nice layering" and it was measuring at 7.7. So of course I can't be perfect, because they want it between 8-12. I'm close, and thinking it shouldn't matter that much, as the transfer is still 6 days away. But of course I'm nervous waiting for the call. I have a few more hours to wait, I'm sure.

Last time I had a good thick lining (10-something) but only "faint" triple stripe. I can't seem to have it all. I'll be curious to see if my e2 is still low, with that thin of a lining.

So I'm here. Waiting. Feeling nervous. I'll update when I hear. Fingers and toes and legs and arms and eyes crossed til then.

BAD NEWS UPDATE - Well, I guess 7.5 (the number my nurse at the far away clinic told me) wasn't enough for them. I've been bumped from the transfer next week, and now have a 6/28 transfer date. Which of course fucks up all the plans I had made. Now, the estrace pill I had been taking orally, I am now shoving up my hoo-ha twice a day. Better get to Cos.tco and buy the bulk pack of panty liners. My e2 was good- at 430-something, so that's not the issue.

Needless to say, I'm really upset. My mom was supposed to come out with me, so Mr. P could stay home with the Critter, so of course her plans are all messed up now too. Argh. I'm not going in for another lining check until Friday 6/22, which is one day after when we should have been flying. So the question is, do we change these flights (and pay the exorbitant change fees) to the 6/28 date? Risk it again? Wait to rebook?

Stress dream

Last night I had my first stress dream that I've had in...well I can't remember when the last one was, so in a loooong time. But fitting, given I am scheduled for my BIG u/s on Saturday, I got several emails and a real mail package from the far away clinic reminding me of all the paperwork and Mr.P's bloodwork that we haven't done yet (whoops). Basically yesterday was the reminder to get my ass in gear here, Pie. This is happening. Next week.

So anyway, the dream. I was back in school, like high school (isn't it always high school?), and I was told I had to do a report. It was due tomorrow. And it was to cover the entire history of the world. All of it. By tomorrow. So my rational, logical self said, "Well, can I just do the cultural history? Like just the history of art, literature, music, dance, that sort of stuff?" As if that were somehow more do-able in the 12 hours I had before the report was due. And I remember thinking to myself in the dream, "Geez. I'm usually so on top of things, I never wait til the last minute to do things like this." I was all stressed about it, that I'd never get it done in time.

Hmmmm. Doesn't take some fancy letters after your name to figure this one out, does it?