I really am trying to embrace the fact I might end up with a baby. Embrace that others are normal, and want to celebrate said baby, and that I'm the weird, ultra-superstitious, and a tad crazy, one. But I think I'm improving. I think I'm making progress here.
I have been to several baby stores. Stores I was scared to even enter until after 20 weeks. I have been to several now. Sometimes more than one in a day! That's progress!
And at these stores, I've chosen stuff that I think the critter will need. Like baby stuff. Clothes, and cribs, and bathtubs, and bouncer seats. Real stuff that a real baby would use. Maybe even MY baby might use. Wow, that's progress, right? Not just a hypothetical baby, but MY critter baby.
And I've scanned all these things in the fancy-magic scanner thingy, and now they are all in my (well, the critter's) baby registry. Out there, for all the world to see. And for people that know me and coming to one of my showers to buy for the critter.
Granted, it was horribly overwhelming. There is so much stuff...and not all of it the baby needs. But stuff marketed to freaked out soon-to-be-moms like me that the baby allegedly needs. It is a lot to wade through. And for someone that has panic attacks even entering these baby emporiums, I am really proud of myself for picking out a whole registry of baby stuff. I researched, I weeded through, I asked a few moms I know. I think I did alright by the critter. She will have a place to sleep, things to wear, a place to bathe, and stuff to clean up her poop.
It is progress. And I'm proud of me for getting over the fear, embracing what is looking like my future reality as a mom of a critter, and just doing it.
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Kudos to you !! It's called a realized hope.... not just wishful thinking anymore. :)
ReplyDeleteProgress is good! Sounds like you've turned a very exciting corner. You'll have to let us know details of some of the things you've picked out.
ReplyDeleteCongrats! You're getting close, so good to be prepared for your little one's arrival!
ReplyDeleteI'm very very proud of you! It sounds like hope and joy over this pregnancy are finally winning out over terror and anxiety, but man is it every difficult to keep that balance!
ReplyDeleteAt some point (not yet, but maybe soon) I might ask you to email or post the stuff list -- all of my friends have kids who are at least 2, so the stuff has kinda changed!
I am very proud of you, too. I know what a big step all of that is to an IF girl, so you are doing great! Keep on doing it...it will all become second nature to you soon.
ReplyDeleteYay, Pie! I'm proud of you, too!!! Registering was VERY overwhelming!!! But I'm getting so excited for my shower... I hope you get to that point!!!
ReplyDeleteThat is great! I read your posts, imagining that I will feel the same surreal feelings about actually becoming a mother. Infertility has been my world since I got married, and at this point I can't imagine moving past it. But here you are--once infertile, now creating baby registries! I'm proud of you for conquering those nerves!
ReplyDeleteYou are so brave, going into THE stores! :) I haven't braved even one yet! It's so exciting - it's getting so real for you! Woohoo! :)
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