Reflections after acu

I went back to acupuncture for the first time in eons today. It was a bit weird going back there, back to a place I hadn't been since Before The Critter (BTC). I remembered it was a nice spring that year, BTC, and being in the parking lot there, enjoying the sun before an appointment. And going to their lovely office, with the nice views of the city, and trying so hard to calm the f*ck down and focus on my uterus.

Back again. It does feel different this time - I still love love love acu, that's for sure. I don't know what it is about those needles, but my body just hums and feels good afterwards.

But its different from BTC, because now, I'm just tired, and find myself just zoning out during the treatment. Or I'm thinking about what I need to do with the Critter this week. I found myself needing to pull my thoughts away from her, not from the stress of wanting her.

Such a different place to be.

I keep trying to do what I did last time, so I get the same great result, like last time, BTC. I wonder if not being as stressed about this will help or hurt me. I mean, I know in my rational head that's silly, it shouldn't matter. But in my superstitious brain, I'm wondering. Should I feel more stressed? Should I try to be more like then, like BTC?

Nah, that's dumb. Enjoy the non-stress now, it will creep in soon, I'm sure.