Yup - it's on, folks!
I triggered last night at 10pm, and ER is on for 9am Tuesday morning. Oh boy, here we go!
Follies are looking good, although I'm getting worried now that they may be too big, over-mature. On Sunday morning monitoring my right have 5 big ones, all 20+, and my left was hiding so we only measured 3 because it hurt too much for her to wand me to death. On the left they were 19-17. E2 was 2850! Highest ever. Please, please, please let that mean there are a few extra mature ones hiding.
I'm getting nervous, just for everything. I've been working so hard, put so much into this up til now, I just want it to work so badly. But I don't get hopeful, I get scared. I prepare for the worst. I figure it's easier to be pleasantly surprised than have my hopes dashed. Mr. P thinks I'm nuts, and I need to stay positive, but it is self-protective to be like this. Yes, everything has gone well, at least as well, if not better, than my last 2 cycles. Yes, I'm at one of the best labs in the country. Yes, we will do microarray, and get my lining issues in order, and remove my fibroid (which, btw, is now huge) before making a perfect lining for the FET.
But....just but.
But everything. That is what I am focused on now. All the buts (and not just my sore left butt from yesterday's trigger shot, har-har-har).
Blah, I just want it done. I want it to be tomorrow already. I want it to be February, after the FET. I want it to be next year, after I have my child in my arms. But that all sounds hopeful.
So I guess it easiest to say I want to be done with all this IF craziness.
Repeat: Cold Peace
1 day ago
Best of luck tomorrow -- my fingers are crossed for you! I hope there are a few more mature follicles hiding out when they get in there tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteI don't know that anyone can be positive, as opposed to self-protection mode, after spending any substantial amount of time in the infertility trenches. I think that is where I really have to lean on other people. I can be optimistic for others and I need them to be optimistic for me. I am optimistic for you. :)
Looks like we both have a big day tomorrow! May we both have perfect results. I have lots of hope for you, sounds like everything has gone so well. Can't wait to hear your update after ER. Come on lots of mature follies!
ReplyDeleteWow! This is great news! Best of luck tomorrow...I'm hoping you have quite a few mature eggs in your basket. Also, I think triggering at 20-24 is still fine. Just my opinion from my own experience that as long as they are under 30, they shouldn't be post mature. But I guess everyone is different. Again, best of luck tomorrow. I'm sending you lots of mature egg vibes!
ReplyDeleteI read this post and kept thinking in my head. "Yes. I get that. Me too. Yup. You said it sistah." Best wishes for tomorrow. I hope everything goes more than smoothly. Take it easy and be gentle with yourself. I hope there are plenty of lovely perfectly mature eggs in there for your future FET. I will be cheering you on big time over here, right behind you by a couple of days. Go Pie GO!
ReplyDeleteme too, me too.. i want all this craziness to be over for you.. i really hope tomororw is the start of that.. this is the first step, get these eggs out, make some beatuiful embies, store them in waiting for you.. get you all fixed up, and then get those babies back in you.. i hope it all goes by fast and easy. i am feeling good abotu FET and far away clinic for you.. really feeling positive about it.
ReplyDeleteYay! Good luck with ER! Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteWishing you the BEST cycle and lots of mature eggs and lots of perfect embabies. I look forward to following your journey.
ReplyDeleteMy fingers are crossed for you. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteWow, great E2! I bet you're right, there are more follies hiding on the left. I'm so excited for you, can't wait to hear how the ER goes!
ReplyDeleteI hope it all went well today for your retrieval Pie. You had a good number of follicles brewing, so hopefully they got them all out!!
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Hey pie - hope all went well today. Thinking of you heaps. Man we know how you feel. You are so not alone with all those thoughts. Hang in there and get on that nugget and fries diet!!!
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