Things are going ok here. I am still...sad, disbelieving, amazed. All of those things. It comes in waves, where sometimes I forget it didn't work, and then bam, I remember. I am snuggling that Critter extra close, as you might imagine. I do find solace in her sunny smile. How could I not? She is such a joy and we are so very lucky to have her.
In what could be either the best or worst idea ever, I am taking the Critter to see my family Back East for the weekend. Very impromptu trip, to attend a retirement party for my dad. When they scheduled it, we said we thought we wouldn't be able to go, as I'd be pregnant. But I'm not, so they offered to fly us out last minute. Mr. P has a work dinner thingy Saturday night, so he can't come. So just me and an 18-month old toddler. Like I said, either really dumb or really fun.
Thank you all for your vitural hugs and good wishes. They mean so incredibly much to me, really. I've read them many times, and it does ease the pain knowing you all are there and understand. So thank you.
Repeat: Cold Peace
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Sending you even more hugs as you embark on your solo trip with The Critter! Brave girl! Hope you have a great time and that it provides a little break from all you've been going through.
ReplyDeleteHoping the trip home is just what you need. Failed FET's suck hard. So be gentle with yourself :) Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteTrip sounds like a great idea. Our trip to NY was a wonderful distraction after my loss.
ReplyDeletestill so sorry the fet didn't take, i'm so bummed for you. we are taking a trip out west next week, just me and the 2 1/2 year old, we've done it before and i'm not gonna lie, it's not easy, but once you get there you'll be happy you did it.
ReplyDeleteOy -- I am just catching up on reading and am so sorry about the FET. This sucks -- if your anything like me, you feel bad for feeling sad because you already have a kid, but still would like another. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteA trip sounds lovely. You will be fine, and it will be a great distraction to be at home. Have fun!