I swear, I am the stat wrecker. If you need those sky-high great pregnancy stats brought down to a lower lever, far away clinic, I'm your girl.
Only one of my 4 euploid blasts led to a pregnancy. Not so good, stat-wise.
I spoke to Dr. Famous today, asked him his thoughts on my 1 of 4 luck. He attributes it to poor egg quality, saying that genetically normal isn't the only thing that leads to life. Other issues, like total number of cells, cell function, and other immeasurables, also play a part. And given my blasts were "okay" looking, never pretty (meaning B grade), they might have had other issues. He doesn't think it has been an uterus issue for me, although he did say that if I were to do it again, he would still put me on the the evil depot loopyron again.
I asked him what he would recommend for next steps, if we were interested in taking any. I was surprised to hear him say IVF with me. I was expecting to hear donor egg. He thinks I can make a decent egg, we just have to find it. I'm not so sure, given its been almost 3 years since I last cycled and and my eggs were clearly not so great then. But it was interesting to hear him not write off my eggs just yet.
So yeah. I'm not really sure cycling again is a path I'm willing to go down, not to mention Mr. P's willingness, or how to do it with the Critter. But it was interesting to talk with Dr. Famous about it all.
I'm feeling a bit better today, thanks mostly to all you sweet people and your lovely comments. I feel much less alone in this, and I am so glad you all are out there and get it. It means so much, more that you know. Thank you.
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Interesting take on it, glad you were able to talk to him.
ReplyDeleteAre you guys interested in other ways to give Critter a sibling? I know we had reached the end of our limit with wanting to do IVF, but I realize having had success it changes the way you look at it :)
Glad you're doing a bit better.
I feel like I could have written this post myself. My RE said the same thing to me this summer- that she thinks I can produce a good egg and that it's a matter of finding it. I'm 38 and it has been 3 years for me too since I cycled and and my eggs/stats were not great then.
ReplyDeleteThis is a difficult juncture.
Glad you are feeling a little bit better. I too am feeling less alone, which helps.
Glad your doing better, glad you got to talk to him (Dr Famous). Glad you are thinking about cycling again. My motto is never give up, never let infertility win.
ReplyDeleteI hope and pray you can talk your dear husband into it. I was able to talk my husband in another donor after our donor (first one) gave us crappy eggs. No eggs no baby.
Thinking of you
I am so sorry my dear friend. My heart goes out to you. I've had the same internal battle. My heart would love to cycle again, but I know my heart also can't handle it. You are in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteyou and me both, sister, in the bringing down stats department. i've transferred 6 euploids to get this one almost baby. i'm so sorry you've had to face this disappointment and hope it helped tog et dr. s's take.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that Dr. Famous hasn't totally dismissed your chances-- I'll be interested in what you have to say about your thoughts in the upcoming days. Cheering for you from here, and hoping that all will be well with your heart.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. I can't believe that you've had to go through all of this. I understand how it feels to think of facing the end of the road with treatments vs doing just one more. I am here thinking about you and cheering you on no matter what your decisions are.
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