Monday, October 5, 2009

Crash & burn

Bad news today.

Of the 6 that were still kicking Friday, 2 made it to blast. But only one of those is viable, the other being Day 6 CC-. So they are biopsying the one Day 6 BB blast for genetic testing, and thaw the frozen blast from our last cycle (IVF #2) tomorrow. If it survives the thaw (about 75% do, but I seem to be on the wrong side of the odds these days, so I'm not thinking it's a sure thing), we'll have 2 to send for genetic testing.

I'm really upset. Tears streaming down my face as I type this.

I'm really starting to think I may never have children. And that sucks.

20 comments:

  1. oh no! This whole thing sucks, and I'm so very sorry. Don't completely give up faith yet... there still is hope for this cycle.

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  2. I'm so sorry. I will be thinking of you and hoping that your frozen blast survives the thaw.

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  3. I'm sorry that not many are doing what you need. I hope the two behave and are able to be used. Good luck.

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  4. Ah, Pie. I was hoping for better news, just like you, but don't give up hope just yet. Sounds like you have one little fighter and one is all it takes!

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  5. I am so, so sorry. I wish it were different and that effort=outcome. Know that I'm thinking of you and pulling for the frozen blast to make it.

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  6. Oh my God, this is not the news I was hoping to read at all. =(

    I am so sad and frustrated for you right now! You have every right to be upset.

    And I know it may sound Pollyanna, but there's still a strong possibility the blast from this cycle will be normal! And CGH normals have great "take" rates. Was the blast from IVF#2 vitrified?

    For now, just cry and scream and let out all the frustration.

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  7. I'm so so sorry! I'll be praying for you that it works out.

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  8. DANG IT!!!! I hate you are going through this and am so sorry this is all so hard (emotionally & physically). I am praying the other 2 make it .. stay strong! (HUGS)

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  9. Im so sorry this is dreadfully upsetting. Please try and stay strong. Wait and see. Old Chinese Proverb - Deal with what you can with what you have where you are.

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  10. Oh honey that sucks!!! Hoping you have a few good embabies!!!!

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  11. I nominated you for an award on my blog. I thought you could use a smile. I hope your two make it.

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  12. Oh Pie. I'm so so sorry. I really hope that your frozen one thaws nicely tomorrow and that you can send both for testing. You would expect to get 1 normal out of those 2...and there's a lot of people on IVFC getting pregnant with 1 normal blast.

    This sucks, it's not fair, and I hate it.

    Mrs IVF

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  13. I'm new to your blog, but I am not new to CCRM. I'm really sorry for your news today. Maybe you will fall on the good side of the statistics and your frozen will thaw beautifully and both of your embryos will be genetic beauties as well. But I know it still hurts, when every step of this blasted process is met with obstacles and disappointments. Hang in there.

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  14. ohh sweetie! It's just not far. I will be hoping for the best. Keeping my fingers crossed that both can be tested and nice snugged away in your uterus!

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  15. Poem for pie:

    I know you arent feeling great
    and aren't having very much fun
    and two has made you sad,
    but two is better than one

    One is better than none
    and none would be really a shame
    so as I see thing m'dear
    you are very much still in the game

    Mrs IVF and I sorta know how you feel
    and really feel for you
    Its a horrible miserable feeling
    are really dark and yukky shade of blue

    The boards are full of stories
    off getting there with just a few
    hang on there my friend
    Mrs IVF and I are thinking of you.

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  16. Oh Pie. I am so, so sorry.

    I wish I knew what I could say to make you feel better, but since I have no idea - just sending you lots of (((big hugs)))

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  17. Oh sweet little Pie. I am so sorry. This sucks and is so disheartening. Sending lots of love and hugs and hope that the one is THE ONE.

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  18. So sorry you are dealing with this. It is not fair. I hope that you can get some answers from the genetic testing. Thinking of you. Sending a big big hug.

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  19. I'm so sorry, Pie. This totally sucks after all you have gone through to get here. I'm bummed for you. Hang in there and don't give up hope just yet. I know it's easier said than done but try to have faith in your little fighter. I'm thinking of you. (((hugs)))

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  20. =(( I was really hoping for more good news, I'm so so so sorry, I know this is painful. Don't lose complete hope, it's not over. Take some time to grieve the loss of the embies that didn't make it and then put all your hope into the ones that did. Big huge hug!

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