A big week, this week. We go on Thursday (6w4d) to hopefully see what has been growing and heartbeating inside me. Fingers crossed for that.
I'm feeling ok about it, but I know I will get more nervous as the day approaches. Today, 4 days out, I'm ok. 20 minutes beforehand, I'll be a nervous wreck. Deep breaths.
Today I have a baby shower. For the 40-year-old (wait, did she just turn 41? I think so...) who got pregnant waaaay before her wedding (posts here and here). And I'll tell you, just because I'm pregnant now, it does not make it any more fun to go. It goes along with my dislike of most things girly, as well as my IF scars I still carry. Just seeing this woman, and seeing her take for granted how easy her pregnancy was to achieve and maintain, it makes me pissed off. I mean, it is not her fault that this was so easy, too easy, for her. But I still resent that she acts as if the whole world has it as easy she did.
But to make it all better, it is the LOST finale tonight. I am beyond excited for this. I am truly one of those geeky people that obsess over this show - read all the blog posts, chat boards, screenshots, etc - and I am just soooooo psyched for tonight. I'm sure I will have sadness and withdrawal tomorrow. But for now - I can't wait for tonight!
Repeat: Cold Peace
1 day ago
Good luck on Thursday! Hope the baby shower isn't too awful...
ReplyDeleteGood Luck with the baby shower today. I haven't been to one of those in years. You are braver than I! Will be thinking of you as your u/s day gets closer. You've given me hope!
ReplyDeleteHooray for six weeks! Hoping for nothing but happiness at your ultrasound, but I totally get feeling nervous.
ReplyDeleteAnd ick on that shower...
You know, I've never seen one episode of LOST. But I have my fair share of television addictions!
YAY for 6 weeks. I am so excited for your ultrasound on Thursday. I'm not into Lost, but the Grey's Anatomy finale was amazing.
ReplyDeleteThis IS a big week. Sending good vibes your way.
ReplyDeleteAs for the shower, at least you have Lost to look forward to. We totally missed the boat on that one, but I will say that the 25 hours that we've devoted to The Wire over the last few months - have saved my sanity. If you've not seen it, it's an extremely well-written/well-acted distraction.
When you see that flicker this week you better join the BFP thread! ;)
ReplyDeleteThis is an awesome milestone. I am excited for you. Sorry you have to deal with the baby shower. I am so with you on the "PG-came-easy-to-me" ladies. Just cant deal with injustice that we have to go through to get to the same place!
ReplyDeletedo you know how good those words "And I'll tell you, just because I'm pregnant now"... look on the page...
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